Dont Throw Your Hand

Phaedrus woke up in the middle of the night. He had just had a dream, a vision. He dreamt that he was god. Transcending duality was what it was all about. He had the answer. So now how was he going to do it. But before he found out how to do it...
Did he really want to reach out and become infinite. Did he want to give up the comfor of his mortal life.

If awareness of self is conciousness, and the ultimate aim is to transcend that, then how can act of one's volition-a concious effort, ever lead to the ultimate.


Whats wrong with me. This isnt the first time im asking myself this question. I have all the answers too. But why dont i try to change myself. Why do i lack the will to bite the bullet. Maybe the answer to everything lies in the deeper questions of life.