In your head

The last week and the week before that seem hazy in memory. I remember it started with a slew of submissions. That ensured a couple of sleepless nights to start with. Towards the end of this I found a new game to get high on. I got addicted almost instantly. This meant more sleepless nights. Towards the end of the week I was a zombie. I couldn’t go to sleep, couldn’t stay awake. I just had to play the game. Nothing else mattered. Not the exams I had coming up. Not the fact that my right hand/wrist felt like it was going to fall off. This had never happened to me before. Sleep had always been sacred to me. It was above worldly pleasure like games, but here I was, losing my religion.
Ok that’s enough song names for one post so get on with it
Why did I no longer care about sleep and food? Why was my game more important that my health? Is this the sign of an addiction?
Luckily I am out of it. I got a break and went home for a couple of days. I intentionally didn’t take the game home and this helped me detox to some extent.
After getting back on campus I realized that though I was still addicted and had to play, I was winning. Either the game was getting boring or my conscience was fighting its way back. In fact having taken time out to write this blog is a small battle I have won. I should have this licked soon.